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Its ok to be sad.
I think thats the main thing i learnt today.
Ive lived my whole life putting on a facade when things were low...not letting people know, living in denial, call it what you like...but actually, its ok. The rain WILL come.
Funny things happened today. well...they're kind of funny.
Gods helping me deal with things, in a way which seems harsh, but in a way which, i guess works. as long as i get over it, im easy. He knows best.

video this morning...i liked it. imagery was nice, idea was awesome.
Never really thought of God in that way before, like a REAL dad, like, a dad in our sense of the word...but...better. One who will do ANYTHING to get you home...who will pull you close, hold you tight. man.
Restoration, not boring, might/probably be frustrating, definately necessary.
Analogy was good. have i ever really cried out from the depths of me? have i ever really cried out that hard? don't think so.
I like the idea that Hes already carrying us, we're on His back whether we think it or not, have to rely on Him, have to be dependant on Him.

He knows the way home. Imagine if the baby said, actually dad, id like to try find my own way home, wouldnt even be able to see past the trees.
The dude said something along the lines of, his son couldn't see anything past the rain, past the storm, he was scared because he didnt know anything else...just kept getting the message its ok to be scared... its ok to cry out, to be weak, to be vulnerable. you don't win points for being the person who kept the most emotion bottled up, or who seems the most together. Gods not gonna love you more, or respect you more for being 'tough', or pretending its ok...chances are, He wants us to cry out, so He can pull us close, whisper in our ear, remind us of His love.
Things are hard at the moment, theres a lot of crud going on which i guess i can't control. But God...He reigns. He's victorious, and He's on my side. I guess...its ok to be sad, to admit things are hard, it wont all be together all the time right?
Haha...eternal perspective...its already proven to be an awesome years motto.

Sleeeeeeeeeeeeepy.
Planned to read le bible after iD, but guess God had other plans, ended up chattin to chrissy...awesome to share again, chat, just...be. seems like its been a while. Haha. STOP BEING A MUM!:P the list is growing...

Its bigger than what we can see. Than what we know. Than what we perceive.
Kind of comforting...i like the feeling of being small. well, at this particular moment i do :P

My sister keeps calling me a man...so much love! guess being a guy would be easier...ive heard they're more simple :P
Peace to y'all.
spammermonkey.x

on a completly random note. did you know your brain is growing? LOOK! its coming out of your ear! mmm. ten cool Loser points to whoever checked.