plop.

...when i was at county, i used to like doing endurance training and i guess, thinking back on it now...you could tell and see the effects of it. My game was quicker from the movement side of training, my general physique was better (although its going slightly more podgy now due to lack of anything and a continued level of food) and i felt so much healthier.

Recently ive been wondering...why is it that i always seem to be making the same mistakes, doing the same wrong things and sinning in the same ways? why is it that with God i always seem to be learning the same lessons over and over? that i keep having to be retold, reminded of things which ive already been taught?

...its kind of like endurance training.

Things have to be worked on, and reworked on, so that old habits can be lost and i can 'groove' new habits which are God-glorifying. My learning nature and human-ness is such that i have to do things over and over before ill get it.
Sure somethings will come easier, like...when you first burn your hand on a pan...you'll know not to do it again...whereas other things take time to develop...like walking. But no matter what, no matter how, i know that with God i WILL learn. His grace, power and phenomenal teaching skills will be the thing which will pull me through. Him and nothing else.
Its not pointless to learn something one day if it won't necessarily be fully remembered the next week, because for that day im working on that one thing, and continued work on it can only be a good thing.

Still a thought in progress, but its starting to make more sense.


do ducks honk?