New findings, CU and experiments.

Over the past few days,been trying to find out what i should do with my time.
I guess the first point-of-call was my devotional time...i know it needs revamping, i guess re-starting aswell..since the past few weeks its been kinda lifeless and...tired. So, somethings were sorted out and God's totally showing me things again which is awesome.
Everyone knows i like to be busy...and as far as i can tell, thats not something which is bad as such...God seems to be ok with me being busy over the next few months. (no unease or worry or anything). So, theres a few things i could do with my time...a few places i could go...clubs i could join...things i could do.
But i kinda felt God calling me to learn. Which seems a bit strange because im at uni...duh...won't i be learning anyway? But...like learn basic foundations about the bible, get stuck in to finding a place/purpose in society...as a means of exploring where God would want me to work in the future. Also...learning more about what it means to be peaceful, to be self controlled, to be patient, pure, reverant, faithful. (also...in Titus...found a verse...seems to be calling me to be "busy at home"...dno what that means yet.) A time to explore God...to explore His heart for this society...and for the people around me.
My mum said she thinks she got an answer as to why im at home...and i think Gods kinda been using her reason and other things to show me why im here. Which is cool. Yay!

So, last night...was praying...is this right? Is this wanting to learn right? Is this really the purpose You have for me whilst im here? Why can't it be more sociable? (:P afterwards...thought that this thought was kinda wierd.)
And then...totally randomly, as i was praying for something COMPLETLY different...God led me here :
"Tune your ears to wisdom, and concentrate on understanding. Cry out for insight and understanding. Search for them as you would for lost money or hidden treasure. Then you will understand what it means to fear the Lord, and you will gain knowledge of God. For the lord grants wisdom!" Proverbs 2: 2-6

So i guess ive found where God wants me for now. Found a purpose. Its exciting! Yay! learning...totally awesome...have to trust that God is totally gonna use this time for something in the future. Theres a reason!

I guess ive been feeling slightly lonely aswell...what with the being so far off campus thing. But its cool...God's bringing in friendships slowly...and showing me that even though most of the uni things/ways of thinking is that you need to know as many people as possible...thats not how He works. He knows everyone anyway, and He knows who He wants me to talk to. He made me realise i'd much rather be used in fewer people's lives which leads to God's plans being fulfilled and hopefully lives being saved, then knowing tons of people and feeling less physically alone.

As an aside...i also wanted to do find something to do in a place where my heart lies. Ive been looking at the volunteering schemes, and theres a few things i might do...gna go talk to the volunteering guy today at uni.
Theres...saturday morning play scheme...working with disadvantaged kids, bringing some joy...some fun & laughter into their lives. Then theres the youth crime thing, working with young offenders (this is what i really wanna do...since...most of my future dreams of what i wanna do are based around young offenders). Theres also working at the childrens hospital with sick kids, during visiting hours whilst their parents are at work...being a source of entertainment. Last but not least, theres going back to childline.
All four sound so so awesome...so we'll see if God opens the door for any of them.

So, i have lots of ideas for stuff...(lots of time = more thinking = ideas). Which, is kinda cool...new things...all this newness!

Thats where i am now!

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Went to CU prayer & praise yday...and was pretty much the only fresher...Was cool to just go into a room and pray with people i don't know...cool to hear what Gods doing and what He's protecting and looking after. :) The CU are facing some real opposition though in terms of the whole being pushed out the guild situation though...its getting really serious. But its in God's hands! He has a plan...
Met a 3rd year girl called Helen who was really cool...awesome to have a friendly face whos so willing to talk...she took me out for a drink at selly sausage after :) Since i had an hour of nothingness until i had to meet alice (a girl from KES whos also living at home...) to go to our cell group. Was cool just chatting with her, finding out what God's done in her life. stories!
Then went cell group...its lead by two 2nd years...jo n joel...was cool, our cell group is quite small...about 10 of us. But they all seem cool...we're gonna start studying the book of John.
We played games...(anyone remember hungry hippos?!? :P)...chase the ace...and the game where you give 2 true statements and one false one and they have to guess which ones wrong. Funny times.

Im in a psychology experiment today!! We have to be in 18 points worth of research for the 2nd n 3rd years so that when we're doing research in our 2nd n 3rd year we can then recruit 1st years too. (also...im doing some research next week...and they're paying me!! i get better pay being a lab rat than working at millies...)

Still haven't heard from Millies though. Mmm. need to keep phoning dave. He's never there when i phone!

Got a book out from the library on tuesday :) yay! :P i got the last one...mwahahahaha...

anywho...off to uni i shall fly.