Bread.

Thank you for your responses to the last two posts, they have been mulled over, added to my collection of thoughts on these topics and laughed at... :P I feel all the wiser from all your musings :)

Lots and lots of new things. Times are a changin'!

At the moment, God's shaking up a lot of different things in my life, i guess a lot of its internal, stuff like where my thoughts dwell, my ideas about relationships, my hopes for the future, how God is portrayed in my head knowledge..
Things He's been teaching me range from how majestic He is, how much He loves the people in my life, having faith that He is working in their lives, challenges in my devotion to Him, challenges in my prayer life and in where i put my energy.

I realised just how selfish ive grown to be recently, its not good and its not pretty, but now i can see this selfishness that i was so blinded to before, we can go about changing it, working on it, enduring through this dirt. :)
I remember somebody saying that as you come to know God more, as you grow, you become infinitely more aware of how sinful you are, it gets more painful to look inward because the dirt and the dregs are more easily spotted. Its like this -
"How can i know all the sins lurking in my heart? Cleanse me from these hidden faults. Keep your servant from deliberate sins! Don't let them control me..." Ps 19:12-13
This passage echoes whats in my heart right now. Theres this constant, second-by-second gritting battle for my purity, every second saying no to my sinful nature so i can say yes to God...this constant "ahhhh God! Don't let them control me!" ah man, my resolve is so weak, and its so clear that im a child to this battle, i keep fumbling with my weapons, dropping things, losing my vision, but its so good to have the winning, glorious God on my side...the God who is holy and perfect and yet makes room for our mistakes.

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Read psalm 19...its fantastically awesome.
...we can learn from the heavens and the sun...creations of God which constantly pour out this devotion to God. Sure, they're not in relationship with Him, but from this psalm its clear to see that in so many ways God calls us to have similar traits...

"The heavens proclaim the glory of God. The skies display His craftsmanship. Dad after day they continue to speak; night after night they make Him known...God has made a home in the heavens for the sun. It bursts forth like a radiant bridegroom after his wedding. It rejoices like a great athlete eager to run the race. The sun rises at one end of the heavens and follows its course to the other end. Nothing can hide from its heat..."

God too has made a home for us in the heavens, He is our radiant bridegroom and He calls us to rejoice like great athletes, eager to run the race He has set before us...we can live lives which follow its course to end up in heaven, being so set on our course and so steeped in His power and truth that nothing can stop us, and no soul can hide from His power in our lives. Its true! Its possible! But it doesn't happen without a fight and without endurance...(this is the part im learning), its a hard graft, a constant struggle and yet a constant joy. Its war but its peaceful.

Woop! Lets be HOT like the sun! :P burning every morsel of energy God gives us for His glory :D