Hallo. shmallo. halloshmello. like marshmellow. just not as fluffy...
When i first thought about Lent...and what to give up, the first thing that came to mind was badminton. But, i thought...im kind of committed..i have a responsibility to the team right? During that 40 day period, id miss like...6/7 games! Thats a third of one season! And i kind of...rationalised the idea away...
So yday...in the second day of 40 days of faith...guess what came up...
"When He had gone a little farther, he saw James son of Zebedee and his brother John in a boat, preparing their nets. Without delay he called them, and they left their father Zebedee in the boat with the hired men and followed him." Mark 1: 19-20
Now James n John...they had responsibilities to their dad...and yet, when Jesus called them they had NO qualms. they just...up and left.
So if Jesus says to me..."why don't you give up badminton for Lent?" why do i then go...but look...look at all these people id be letting down...look at these responsibilites! He KNOWS the responsibilites i have here on earth...but my ultimate responsibility...is to Jesus! He's my guide and the one person i can depend upon, i have to trust that no matter what He asks me to do is best. Even if it goes against the 'responsibilities' i have now. Even if it seems illogical to me. He's bigger and He knows better. Way better.
He also knows where my passions lie.
So this question was posed to me -
Do i value playing badminton more than i value obeying God?
Man...I think, part of me, yes. Its been such a big part of my life (im SUCH a loser:P) for so long, that now when God says...go without for 40 days...even then i go..."uh...do i have to?" FORTY lame days! and i can't even obey Him for that?!?! if i can't do the smaller things, how can He trust me with the bigger things?!
I gotta trust, that He can take that part of me away, cut it away and replace it with more value for Him...because i sure can't do it.
The ironic part of this story is...now i can't play badminton for way over 40 days anyway! Methinks God is trying to tell me something.
Done something funny to the tendon or cartilage can't remember which...But my season is over...mmm. It hurts anyway...and...none of this woulda happened if id have listened to my Dad...! Theres a lesson to be learned here...!
Man...Jesus im so sorry. I messed up, missed out...but theres plenty more lessons to learn. Sure, im bummed about my ankle...but theres no point in getting hung up about it right? theres nothing i can do to change it...but there are things i can do now...like turn to You.
Only three days in. He's showing me things already. Thank You SO much God.
Had my third ever X ray today...wasn't as fun as last time. The lady tried to push my ankle in a direction it wouldn't go...ah...agony. Crazy doctors. They also told me to try and put weight on it (even though i can't even get it flat on the floor without pain) surely they should be telling me to rest?! :P
Walking up the stairs is now a mini adventure! :) Should be interesting...having all this time with nothing specific to do...can sense more lessons coming on...:P woot! bring it on! :D
This is awesome : Hebrews 12:1-13
No driving for a while...the streets are safer...for now.
So much going on...manicyness. Hayley's bday tonight! woot! bring on the food!
Hope you're all ok. God bless ya...!
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told u to rest up..
believe it or not, but Jesus is bigger than tea...as hard as it is..happy lent...ill pray that ur ankle doesnt become too much of a bother and that the nurse lady can try her women's wrestling moves on someone else..not me, i have a bad back.
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