Sunday.

Today, i read this, on a website which i read sometimes (www.beautyfromtheheart.org), just kinda rang a bell.

"C.S. Lewis observed in Mere Christianity: "God made us: invented us as a man invents an engine. A car is made to run on petrol, and it would not run properly on anything else. Now God designed the human machine to run on Himself."
This truth cannot be compromised by imitations that seek to remove God from the picture. Without the Creator, the created cannot be content. Without the Creator, life is meaningless. It is God whose presence grants beauty and eternal perspective to drudgery. Philippians 4:4 becomes possible ( "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!") when God enters the picture. Even washing dishes, for instance, when done for His glory, becomes a brush with the divine. Life becomes more than time spent. It becomes purposeful. It becomes beautiful."

Without God, i have nothing, and in truth i am nothing. If God did not exist, then i would have no purpose, life would be TRULY meaningless and utterly futile. Im grateful that He does. Im thankful for the Father who gives me meaning, who places in my heart, purpose, joy and eternalness. This is something i hope to learn anew every morning, this grace is what i wake up to, this is the truth in my life, its the truth i am armed with when i wake up in the morning. But sometimes i forget. Its a good thing then, that i have Him to remind me.

See, everything bad, comes from sin, comes from this world, comes from my heart, nothing bad has its roots in God, God is good, pure goodness in every sense. In Him therefore there is all things good. Whats good? He IS goodness, perfection, joy, hope, unity, peace, love. Theres this kind of circle when you start thinking about this. God is good. Whats good? God is. He just IS good...everything, absolutly everything which is good comes from God. This complete unity, goodness is entwined in His being, goodness exists because He exists. It seems like im saying nothing, but, its a new revelation. A gift from Him, when we spend time with Him, is that He helps us to become more good. Somehow, seeking to be good, and then seeing that the way to goodness is through God, seems kinda...backward. Goodness is His invention, it is entwined with Him, but it is not better, its just a mere part of Him. Yes, we should seek to be more than sinful, we should seek to become more and more righteous, because through that, He is glorified, but that shouldn't be our driving force. Our driving force shouldn't be to become a good person right? It should be God. He should be the be all and end all of our driving force. goodness is...just seems like a gift, and a consequence of that first passion and first drive. I dno, sometimes, i think i just want to be a 'good' daughter, and so i go about trying to achieve that, i go about trying to be 'better' for God, not so sinful. but, no, thats not what He really asks. First, we should love Him, we should seek HIM. the motive, or the emphasis i guess is just slightly different.

Listening theme keeps coming up, over and over, and OVER...and i want to, keeps seeming like i have no time. But it keeps coming up, and a desire is being stirred to listen. Just, have to fight this stagnancy which threatens to kinda creep in.
"my heart has heard You say 'Come, and talk with Me', and my heart responds, 'Lord, i am coming.' " Psalm 27:8
i have a list of verses on listening now, as i have a list of verses based around Israel. which is cool :)

I saw a tree the other day, but i don't mean, i just...saw it...i actually looked at it. it was a tree, like a normal tree, but obviously unique, bare branched, with the backdrop of a red hazey sunset. It was so beautiful. So many thoughts span off as a result of this tree...and...it sounds strange...but, theres this endless cycle for a tree which so closely mirrors cycles in our lives, im sure many people have made this comparison before, but the idea of seasons...spreading of seeds, fruitfulness and leafyness...then autumn, dropping of fruit, vibrant colours of leaves (which, is actually due to toxins :P ), then winter, bare barrenness....which obviously mirrors our seasons of spiritual abundance and times when God is speaking, then those barren times where God is working and building you up, but its tough, hard work, endurance building. But, God invented it this way. God made the trees go through seasons, its good that they do...they're beautiful in all seasons, they reflect His glory throughout, and constantly they sing His praises, they're part of this earth which cries out God's holiness. It is good. I wonder, whether in Eden the trees went through these seasons too, whether adam and eve got to view the beauty of trees in different seasons. Yes, i just spent an entire paragraph talking about trees.

Our mixed team got promoted tonight, :D we won our game, and now we're up into division 2! not bad going for our first season in the league! my dads well happy :P if we win our next 2 ladies matches...our ladies team will be promoted too... :) will be hard work next season, but challenging, i love spending time with my team, we have great team spirit, and its awesome to be able to chat with them. Our ladies team (which is like, our cap'n, ( a lady called kerry who's insanely cool...), this 16 yr old girl (called tahlia, whos the beauty of our club, shes in worcs county), and this crazy lady called chantel, who is possibly one of the funniest ladies i know...she teaches primary school kids, and has an endless pot of hilarious stories...and me. N whenever we need a pick up, or a kick up the butt, we all act like men n go "HUH" its funny. reminds me of..."SCREAM LIKE A MAN!! urrrrrggghhhhh!! " :)